Sunday, January 6, 2013

SCORE: Stress 1 Willpower 0

It is funny how you can be strong all week and all it takes is one day and one person to bring it all crumbling down around your ears.  Why do I allow another person to have such control over me?

My day started quietly.  I was up 0.2 pounds (guessing from the pizza), blood sugar was 94, blood pressure 132/83 and pulse 60.  GO ME!!!!!  I had an appointment to get my nails done this morning.  I called home afterwards to see if anyone wanted McDonalds.  Britt was still sleeping so I took Alan's order.  I ordered myself a small fry and cheeseburger (well within my calorie budget).  I came home and had a salad with my meal.  When I walked in with food everything was fine.  Within 5 minutes all I hear is everything that is wrong with the house, everything I didn't get done and everything I did that is done wrong.  It is very frustrating.... the smart ass comments, criticism and accusations are more than I can take.  It is like an automatic trigger that sends me straight to the kitchen.  I did eat two pieces of pizza before I got myself under control.  I can do this.  I CAN keep control over myself.  I MUST!!!!

I still have to fix supper but I will try to eat mainly vegetables with a smaller portion of chicken.  I will weigh in the morning and start fresh.  Tomorrow is a brand new day.

As a bonus for today, I am going to post one of the short stories I have written.  I look forward to hearing every one's thoughts.

                                             Until tomorrow............................



Copyright 2013 by Betty Williams

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