What A Difference A Day Makes

It is still somewhat unreal to me the turn that my life has taken in the past 2 - 3 weeks.  I had come to terms with the fact that I was going to be divorced after 27 years of marriage.  It was a difficult decision but I knew I could not continue down the path I was on.  I am so thankful that I had not closed myself off so completely that I was unable to see the true regret and longing to return to what we once had that Alan was expressing.  Prior to this change, I can't remember two hours passing without some snide or hurtful remark or an argument about something stupid, but I have not heard one hurtful word or had an arguement in over two weeks now.  I know we will still have our disagreements, that is only human.  But hopefully the days of personal attacks directed at one another are gone and will never be a part of who we are again.

I am still reworking my goals.  It is taking longer than I thought but they are also more important to me than they were two weeks ago.  I had dreams two weeks ago..... but NOW....I also have real HOPE that those dreams can and will become reality.

I have three main issues that are at the top of my list right now and will share a bit about those.  The first is my need to lose weight.  I have really slipped over the past 14 days on this one.  Knowing I am loved and cherished AS I AM was/is an amazing feeling.  It was also leading me to complacency.  I had lost that burning desire to make the changes I had begun to work on.  These past couple of days I have realized I must push past the complacent feeling and lose this weight.  I still love the look I see in Alan's eyes when he looks at me now, but I need to be able to look at myself and feel this way as well.  I have also noticed with this increased heat we are experiencing, losing the weight is much more than a cosmetic issue for me.  It is a matter of life or death.  I am NOT handling the heat well at all and haven't since my breast cancer treatments two years ago.  But it is getting worse.  I had to have a liver biopsy performed earlier this year.  Thankfully the only action necessary at this point is to lose weight and allow the liver some time to gradually heal as much as possible.  So, I am going to be putting MAJOR emphasis on this.  I will be sharing meal plans, exercise tips, recipes and many other things in coming months.  I hope you will share some of your recipes, tips and ideas as well.  You can either post those here as comments or on my Facebook page for everyone to benefit from.  Facebook information is at the bottom of this posting.

My second goal for right now is continuing to get my house clean.  After it is clean, we are going to start some remodeling.  I am very excited about this.  This has been something I have wanted to do for years.  Cleaning must come first though.  Our daughter, Brittany, has become a HUGE help in this area.  I need to come up with a plan to keep it clean once we get it that way.  Right now, the living room is clean, the dining room has a very good start and the bathroom is getting close to being done. 

I may have mentionted this before, but I have downloaded an app for my cell phone that is a To Do list.  It actually lets you set up as many lists as you want.  I have a general list that reminds me to put on makeup, take my meds (yes I still struggle with this daily), cleanse/moisturize my face and one time things such as errands to run, things to do, places to go and appointments.  I also have a list for housework.  I am hoping that by setting up daily, weekly and monthly reminders it will help maintain the house once it is clean.  I am also listing one time actions in this list that need to be performed to get it clean.  My third list right now is for remodeling.  For now, this list just has items such as measuring windows, doors and our property so we can put up a fence for our dogs to run loose as well as numberous things to gather information about such as a metal roof, fencing and such as that.  I can't wait to actually begin remodeling.

The last thing I am working on for now is to set aside a certain amount of time daily to write.  I have several short story and fiction contests that I am planning on entering.  I also want to post here to you more often. 

This is such an exciting time for me.  I love the direction my life is now heading.  If you see me out now you will see a genuine smile on a truly happy person.  The good news is, it can always get better.

So please continue to join me on this journey to happiness.  I look forward to hearing from you along the way.

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